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[18 Dec 2007|10:23am] |
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If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it.
The closer I get to actual motherhood, the more of a backbone I'm developing. I no longer let people talk to me the way they want or push me around. I tell them what I think and I push back(in a respectful manner, I've never been one to show disrespect). If I am expected to act like an adult: to pay rent and clean house, be a wife and mom, and fulfil my duties as an adult, then I damn well expect to be treated as an adult in return. No more double standards and one way streets. It's not just me anymore... Soon I'll have someone to be 110% responsible for, someone who will suffer if I don't stand up for her and make the right decisions, someone who will be a better & happier person if I show her how she deserves to be treated. I am going to be such a protective mommy; she's not even here yet and I know that I'd kill for her.
I know all my entries lately have been about pregnancy and I do apologize. I know it's probably boring to everyone except me. I just have so many thoughts going around in my head regarding the upcoming year that it's hard to think about anything else sometimes. So much anticipation, so many hopes and dreams, fears and realizations. It gets to be pretty overwhelming.
The husband and I went to John & Heidi's wedding last weekend. I wish the best for them. I know she's glad it's over. Weddings involve so much more planning than what is usually taken into consideration. So much stress, money, and dealing with other people's opinions. Even if it's your wedding, there's usually someone who wants to take control and change things around. That's where the common term "Bridezilla" comes from; eventually the bride-to-be gets sick of and tired of taking commands from other people and finally decides to put her foot down and say, "HEY, this is MY wedding, MY day. Back off."
Within the next couple of years, my dad and Barbara want to buy a house in Carrollton or Newnan and have me and Kent rent-to-own it from them. Stephanie will stay with us while she attends college and we will eventually own the house. This excites me to no end - how great would that be?! It's a lot to consider and think about, but it will more than likely happen. I'm ready to fly this coop and start a real life of our own. I hate living with my in-laws.
I think that's all for now.
Happy Holidays, everyone.
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[05 Dec 2007|02:52pm] |
I think it's amazing how quickly time passes.
Like this pregnancy, for example.
I can't believe I'm already six months pregnant.
27 weeks.
I remember the day I found out... and already, so much time has passed.
I am clearly, obviously pregnant now - no more hiding the tummy.
It's still hard to believe that a little person is growing inside of me.
It's hard to believe how far we've come in a few short months.
The third trimester, I hear, is a lot like the first. If that's true, I'll soon be experiencing morning/day/night sickness, migraines, and extreme moodiness once again. I've briefed Kent on what to expect but hopefully I won't be as ill as I was the first three months.
My next appointment is next Friday and from then on, they'll probably want to see me once every two weeks rather than once a month. I don't really mind, I love hearing the baby's heartbeat.
In an attempt to save on some cash, I've been waking up with Kent every morning (5:30-6am) to make him breakfast and lunch. It's not been easy slipping into a new routine but I'm sure our bank statements will prove that it's worth it.
I'm meeting up with my mom for lunch tomorrow. She wants to browse around for Christmas presents which is always fun... when you have money to spend. Haha. None the less, I'm excited to see her.
Stephanie's coming down to visit next weekend and I am so very very excited.
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My most recent doctor's appointment went well. In total, I've gained 11lbs and he said I'm growing just like I should. While he had the stethoscope on my tummy, she kicked him. It was pretty funny. This time, I saw the same doctor that delivered Kent. In a few weeks, I'll have to go to the hospital to get the glucose screening test. It's going to be an all day type of thing - lots of waiting around.
I came down to Peachtree City on Thursday after mom and I went to my doctor's appointment.
I spent Thursday and Friday with her; it was a lot of fun.
Our relationship has changed a lot and I'm thankful that we're as close as we are.
We baked two pies, went on a walk, and did a lot of talking.
Friday morning I cut and colored her hair.
That afternoon, Stephanie and I went to dad's. That night, Kent drove down to spend his weekend with us.
We spent the night watching tv, talking, and eating pizza.
Today, Kent, Stephanie, dad and his friend Joe went to the shooting range in Fayetteville while Barbara and I went shopping. She bought a bunch of cute outfits for Carly. I bought Kent a sweater.
Tomorrow, Kent and I will head back to Waco.
Tuesday, Kent and I are heading back up to Peachtree City and Wednesday we'll all go the mountains for Thanksgiving. We'll come back on Saturday. I'm so very very excited. It's gonna be great to get away.
Really, really AWAY.
I think that's all for now.
Happy Holidays, all.
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[02 Nov 2007|05:23pm] |
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It's a GIRL!!!
For a video of the ultrasound, go to my myspace.
www.myspace.com/dsbuikema
It's amazing.
And pictures!!!
Yep, she's a girl alright.
Her face.
(tilt your head to the right)
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[24 Oct 2007|10:36am] |
I don't know why the date on my journal entry is so messed up. It's a month ahead?!
Went to the Doctor on Friday for my monthly pregnancy checkup. Everything is good, my heartrate, my urine, my weight(in 4 months I've gained 4 pounds), and the baby's heartrate. I'm 17 weeks along, almosssst halfway through my pregnancy. Oi. :o)
Wednesday, October 3 we're having our next sonogram. We'll get to see baby's brain, spine, organs, and hopefully gender. They'll also do some more standard blood work. I'm so excited. Kent got that entire day off and my dad and sister are coming in from out of town to be there. Hopefully our little angel will cooperate and let us see the goods, I can not wait to find out what we're having.
I've had tons of dreams that it's a girl so it'll be really interesting. Then we can start painting the room.
Other than that, things have been good. Had a great weekend with my sister. Like always, it came to an end too quickly... *sigh*
Going over to see John Lebowitz today, get a few hours knocked out.
Time to shower.
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[18 Oct 2007|12:22am] |
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Ughhhhh. Ok, so starting tomorrow(technically today), I'm going to walk every morning. I figure it may help with my backaches, my sleeplessness and Abby's obesity. Plus, I hear that having excercized during pregnancy helps labor go quicker. When the time comes, that is.
My right eye burns... and for no apparent reason.
I apologized to Kent tonight, mainly for being so difficult these last four months. I don't mean to be a pain in the ass, I really don't. I know he works long hours and wants to come home to a happy, loving wife. Sometimes things just set me off, I've not had the easiest time(physically or emotionally) either. Regardless, I told him that I'd work on my hormones and try to be nicer. He's good to me and usually doesn't get angry when I blow up. He's used to smacking my butt or poking me here and there and I don't find those things funny or cute in the slightest anymore. I know he doesn't and can't understand these sudden changes; he's never been around a pregnant woman before so I'm sure he thinks that I'm losing my mind. And maybe I am, but it comes with the territory. For God's sake, I have a growing fetus inside of me - changing my body inside and out, causing my hormones to bounce back and forth. His drive has increased and mine has nearly diminished. I really hate it, we used to be on the same level(I know, TMI). I hear all of this is normal; the spousal disagreements, the hormones, the food cravings and insomnia, the frequent trips to the bathroom, and the change in sex drive... but I'm ready to be normal again. Ofcourse, after this baby comes the word "normal" will have a totally different meaning.
This weekend, I'm stealing Stephanie.
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[12 Oct 2007|05:15pm] |
Worked with John Lebowitz today... trying to get all of my community service out of the way before the end of this month. That way, I can start job hunting. Before I know it, it'll be March and the baby will be here and then I'm pretty sure I'll have little to no time to do anything.
Fuck community service. All for a speeding ticket. Yes, I've procrastinated - I could/should be done with it by now but... stuff came up. Like college, college graduation, a job, getting married, finding out I'm pregnant... you know - minor, insignificant things.
I was basically his secretary today... did a bunch of typing. Typed letters to the Mayors of Carrollton, Buchanan, Waco, Tallapoosa, and other significant people. Addressed the envelopes, alphabetized his phone numbers, e-mail addresses and home addresses, organized and proofed his time sheet for the entire year... Went in a 9am, finally took a break and ate lunch at 3pm... got home at 5. I think I only have roughly 41.5 hours of community service left... Oi. Shoot me now.
It was freezing in his office today and stupid me didn't bring a jacket. And his toilet wouldn't flush. Now, if you know anything about pregnant women, they have to pee almost every 10 minutes. I won't tell you by what means I went to the bathroom. Haha.
I think I'm over-due for a nap. The husband should be home in about an hour and I'm tired like no other.
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[24 Sep 2007|10:29am] |
Went to the Doctor on Friday for my monthly pregnancy checkup. Everything is good, my heartrate, my urine, my weight(in 4 months I've gained 4 pounds), and the baby's heartrate. I'm 17 weeks along, almosssst halfway through my pregnancy. Oi. :o)
Wednesday, October 3 we're having our next sonogram. We'll get to see baby's brain, spine, organs, and hopefully gender. They'll also do some more standard blood work. I'm so excited. Kent got that entire day off and my dad and sister are coming in from out of town to be there. Hopefully our little angel will cooperate and let us see the goods, I can not wait to find out what we're having.
I've had tons of dreams that it's a girl so it'll be really interesting. Then we can start painting the room.
Other than that, things have been good. Had a great weekend with my sister. Like always, it came to an end too quickly... *sigh*
Going over to see John Lebowitz today, get a few hours knocked out.
Time to shower.
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[06 Sep 2007|11:23am] |
So I'm 21 as of... last Saturday - September 1st. I bought Kent a beer when we went out to dinner. We went to Chili's with my MOM, my DAD, BARBARA, Stephanie, me and Kent... Holy shit. Since the wedding, Barbara and my mom have been talking and decided not only to celebrate my birthday as ONE FAMILY, but to throw me a baby shower together in January. It is, to say the least, different. But I'm happy that I mean enough for them to get along or atleast be civil. It's also very strange though, but not awkward. I like it.
And here's an updated picture of my baby bump.
Fourteen weeks which is a little over three months.
The last week or so I've had horrible migraines but today... I'm magically all better.
Ahh, the joys of pregnancy...
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[25 Aug 2007|10:21am] |
So in exactly seven days, I'll be 21. Wow, it's next Saturday. It's hard to believe I'm that old already, an official adult. Ugh... Next weekend, Kent and I are going to Peachtree City for a couple nights to celebrate with my family. That'll be a much-needed escape.
My mother-in-law is driving me crazy. Her relationship is unstable and therefore so is SHE. She's wishy washy, overly emotional, and fickle. She cleans like a mad-man and jumps up my ass to do the same. Now, I have no problem helping out aside from the fact that I am three months pregnant, feel like shit, and am always tired. On my Saturday, I enjoy rest and relaxation considering that my weeks are filled with errands, cooking, housework, laundry, etc. I have a hard time saying "no" to her because she's always done so much for me but sometimes it just gets ridiculous and I need a break. I wish everything would come together in her life, I wish her idiot boyfriend would pull his head out of his ass and stop being a douchebag because subconciously she's making everyone else's life a living hell.
*SIGH*
Now that I'm over three months pregnant the morning sickness, for the most part, has subsided. Now I find myself constantly tired. Holli said it could be due to low iron. I went to the OBGYN for a checkup on Thursday and I got to hear the little heartbeat again. Three weeks ago, the heartbeat was about 170 and now it's 152... so we're definately growing here!! I'm starting to show already and everyone thinks it's the cutest thing ever but I'm just ready for the cold weather to start moving in.
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[16 Aug 2007|07:41am] |
As waves of nausea pass over me, I realize it's only 7:44am and I can't sleep any longer. Lastnight was my first decent night of sleep in almost a month. The sky is gray and it feels nice to be alone. I don't have a headache this morning, which is also a first. In two days, I'll be walking down the isle infront of God and everyone. Even though we've been technically married for a month, this ceremony really seals the deal. I'm kind of nervous about the reception because it won't be AS traditional. I feel like I kind of got screwed over with the planning... but there's not much I can do about that now.
I feel restless...
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[24 Jul 2007|11:25am] |
Yesterday was my dad's 45th birthday. I couldn't be with him because we both had to work. It seems like when I moved out, I barely knew my parents anymore. I started seeing them as people rather than just "mom" and "dad". Lately, and I don't know if it has anything to do with me getting married and being pregnant, but my dad's been vocally supportive but in person he's quiet and kind of stand-off-ish. Sort of, but not totally. I don't know if that makes any sense. I think Barbara is helping him deal with all of this because she's excited and so is Stephanie. If anyone can convince dad of anything, it's Barbara.
My mom, on the other hand, is basically a basket case. I have once again realized how immature and unreliable she can be. She's terrified of change and therefore makes plans but then cancels them last minute. I think she thinks too much and considers every possible thing that could go wrong. That, in turn, scares her more and causes severe withdrawal. She was supposed to come down last Thursday and meet the in-laws. It was to remain casual: dinner and that's all. What did she do? She made up some bullshit excuse about how it wasn't a good idea and backed out. I think that if she had her way, she'd have me break up with(now, divorce) Kent, terminate my pregnancy and move back home. She never came down, never even gave herself the chance to meet Russ and their mom... and now at the wedding the introductions are going to be THAT MUCH MORE awkward. It makes me so mad... but I can't change her and I can't convince her otherwise. *SSSIIIGGGHHH*
But Dad and Barbara came on Saturday. Everyone likes everyone and things went smoothly - which is awesome. We went to Lake Wedowee and then out to dinner. Parrelli's in Carrollton - it was delish. After that, everyone went to bed and they left first thing Sunday morning. It was short and sweet... a good way to start off. I think Kent and my dad are really going to like eachother given some more time. They were constantly joking back and forth - it's such a relief. I guess I was more scared because they'd never really had the opportunity to get to know eachother in the past. Yay for this.
Sometime in the near future, I need to hop in the shower.
I go into work at 3 and get off at 9. Ick...
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[19 Jul 2007|02:52pm] |
Kent and I got married yesterday. The wedding ceremony is still a month away.
Don't worry, it's still happening. :]
It was beautiful.
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[12 Jul 2007|11:17am] |
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I had no idea that planning a wedding could be so stressful. Who knew it required/involved so much? I just want everything to fall together smoothly, I want a beautiful wedding. Kent and I are both very excited and yet anxious to get it all over with. The rings still haven't gotten here and it's been twelve days today. I want to call Kay Jewelers, but Kent said he would take care of it. Maybe he's planning something?
David(an ex) called me lastnight. Kent picked it up but then David asked to talk to me. I put it on speaker phone. He basically said he felt like he was ready to start a real, actual friendship with me. He said that our relationship really meant something to him and that he wants us to talk more often, as friends. I told him that I had no problem being on good terms, but that I didn't believe that ex's can honestly BE friends especially with as much history as he and I have. He understood. Then I told him that Kent and I are getting married and that we're expecting our first child. He was in total shock. It was strange hearing his voice after so long and it kind of made me sick to my stomach. I mean, I was talking to my exboyfriend with my fiancé in the room. After we got off the phone, I could tell Kent was kind of bothered. So I reassured him that being on "good terms" is all that David and I would ever be, that I never planned on calling him or talking to him as a friend. There's too much water under the bridge and anyway, I'm with the one I love. Everyone else had their chance and Kent is the one who stole my heart.
My first doctor's appointment is next Wednesday. I'm nervous but I'm glad that Kent is going with me. I can't wait to find out my due date and how far along I am. Today's my first day off in forever and I'm bored. Haha, imagine that.
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[01 Jul 2007|09:32pm] |
So Kent and I bought our rings today. Big investment. They're being sent off to be resized so we'll actually get them in 1-2 weeks. Yay!
He got a Tungston Titanium ring, one of the most durable metals out there. He decided on that because of his job and how much he uses his hands. He doesn't want to scratch the ring, etc.
I chose a beautiful bridal set, princess cut diamond - one carat. Just lovely...
We set the wedding date for September 29, 2007. Now the big stress is getting a preacher & church reserved for that date. Then comes the invitations.
Yeet. So much to plan.
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[29 Jun 2007|12:20pm] |
Holy shit. It's been three years since I've written in this journal.
I was reading some of my old entries and I was a sad little girl.
I'm going back to this journal because I really dig the layout.
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[20 May 2004|09:21am] |
Behind the fake family image,
Behind the smile of a thousand moms and dads
Inside the cage that we've been given
I see an image of the future that we don't have...
This journal is Friends Only from here on out.
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[19 May 2004|08:44pm] |
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If you like me, ok.
If you don't, ok.
But don't be a bitch about it.
Today was alright. Nothing great happened. Nathan pierced his tounge with a needle and put a paper clip in it. He's so dumb. But if it's "all for the pussy", I guess it's for a good cause. :/
Tomorrow is the Junior / Senior slide show. Yay for us.
I forget to mention that my life is perfect.
... Doo Dee Doo ...
But did I mention that my life is perfect?
Because it is. Down to every... little.... detail.
Perfect, Perfect, Perfect, Perfeeeeeect!
Cheezenator: i think taylors only 2 goals in life are 1. to make your life miserable and
2. to eat so much food that the children in africa starve
So put that in your pipe and smoke it.
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[19 May 2004|09:00am] |
"Go on and live your happy lives that you think suck and feel sorry for yourselves."
You're right. My life is fucking perfect.
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